Oh my god, it was the first day of Grade 12!! Do you know what that means?? It means that I will never have a first day of school again, well except university but still!!
I so hope this year is going to be EPIC!! I've got my great friends, and I have some great courses plus my sports teams, how could it be anything but??
Except the day didn't end epically like it should. My day ended on a sour note. Alizhay stalked off after drama, wouldn't even wait for me. I get that we didn't sit together and I was with Brice, Sarah and Paige, but that's because of the Variety show Mr. Z asked us to arrange for our drama 30 project. It's a BIG deal, yet Alizhay acted like I'd ignored her on purpose.
She's probably still upset about my taking off last night after she mentioned that William was coming for coffee too. Well I don't have to explain it to you guys, I mean you've read my blogs, and Mari said she'd told her what had happened so why she's acting like I'm being unreasonable is flabbergasting.
Oh well, it will pass much like bad weather. Stormy and hard to navigate at first, but then the calm will come in and things will go back to what they used to be.
Best part of today, aside from Drama which Reese has next semester we are in every class together!! It's going to be like grade 9 all over again, our teachers are in for a big surprise!!
Gotta run, homework is already calling and so is my mom!!
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Tuesday, March 31, 2015
Tuesday, March 3, 2015
Dear Ex Boyfriend
Sometimes we live through different experiences and my one character of my first novel has this is a retrospective letter that she would write to her high school boyfriend that broke her heart after she broke up with him.
Dear Ex,
I know when we broke up things were tense!! So VERY tense, you were mad and I was heartbroken ( I just didn't know it yet). But a lot of time has past, I have come to some realizations and I wanted to share them with you.
When we broke up (read I broke up with you) I was heartbroken and didn't know it at the moment. You were so angry, asking me how I could be doing this to you. You told me it wasn't fair, that you'd even bought me a ring. Which the whole ring, in hindsight, seems extreme we were in high school just to be fair. I was tempted to change my mind, you must have been serious to buy to ring, but something told me not to. I stuck to my conviction, I just knew deep down that something wasn't right with our relationship. I was so sad, SO SAD!! I loved you and I didn't know what was wrong, I couldn't put my finger on it, I just knew something was wrong.
You left for your summer holidays and I stayed in town...part of me thought I'd done you a great favour your weren't forced to stay loyal to me over the summer you could get a summer girlfriend. Meet a girl on the beach, flirt away with twenty of them, it was like getting a hall pass. GO have your fun, I'll have fun here while you're gone but we will never speak about our adventures. I didn't understand at the time that you just wanted me, because I just NEEDED out.
I had two weeks of my summer where I hung out with our friends, your guy friends, who were not happy with me, but they were dating my friends so I was someone they had to accept. I wasn't happy though, something was missing. My 16 year old heart was yearning for someone and surprise surprise I wasn't finding that someone in any summer fling. I thought I'd found one, but the distance was too much and he was starting to get into things I wanted nothing to do with.
So I stayed in town and I knew I'd made a mistake. Everything I did made me think of you, everything. I wanted to call you, to write you, to send you a message, but I never did, because I knew you'd be back home soon. I could only hope that you would be willing to listen to me, to hear my apology, I'd no reason other than a gut feeling to break up with you. There was no proof, no evidence just speculation and suspicion. Then I had a conversation with a Little Birdie.
I had told said Bird that I was considering asking you to go out with me again when you returned home. I missed you so MUCH! I felt I made a terrible mistake, I wanted my best friend back, the person I could count on to make me smile, the person who knew about all my insecurities and loved me anyways. The little Bird then confirmed my suspicions, you'd been unfaithful, you'd stepped out on me and you'd done so with the Little Bird more than one time. For many times over the last couple of months. Times when I knew you were together, but you swore you were just friends. I didn't believe her at first, I thought this was some ploy, then two more people confirmed it.
Devastation befell me, my broken heart broke again, shattering into thousands of pieces. I cried and I got angry, and then I got even. I found a summer boyfriend, he was older, much more mature than you and I was going to live my life without you. SCREW YOU!! I screamed in my head and maybe out loud a time or two. I maybe should have been suspicious about the timing of the revelations, Bird just didn't want us back together because she wanted you. But I guess she screwed us both and herself over because you never took her as a girlfriend (thank you).
What a tumultuous time that was!! There were accusations, and lies and parents getting involved and then silence. And then we didn't talk, we'd pass each other in the hallways and not a word was spoken. The frigidness between us could have solved Global warming and brought in a new Ice Age. It eventually subsided, we each found happiness else where.
Then we each experienced heart breaks of our own. Who knew Karma could be such a BITCH!! And that girl cheating on you, (even though part of me was glad you were on the receiving end) made me so mad for you!! You were, are a great guy! It was fun reconnecting, and there was no pressure, It was easy falling back into a friendship with you.
I know you saw me do things, and I never chose you. I couldn't choose you for a lot of it you were with that girl, then you weren't but I was with that boy. It was serious, we'd been together for ever, but he was so bad for me, bad, bad, bad and he only got worse, but I don't know I guess my self esteem was non existent. I felt I deserved the treatment he gave me, because all my boyfriends before me had cheated, so maybe that's what I was supposed to end up with. What a horrible fate I must have earned and yet I had no idea why I'd earned it. I started making bad decisions, partying every night, random hook ups, you saw it all. You know more than I am sure you ever let on. Maybe that period of our story is why our story is this way, why we never tried to co-write another chapter together, who knows what might have been.
Then we had some more encounters over the years, but you were with someone or I was or we were both single but never ventured past friendship again. You were my friend again and I was so HAPPY, and maybe just having you back as a friend was enough and not something I was willing to gamble with, I'm just not 100% sure.
I know I thought about it, I wondered what it would be like to give you a second chance. I wondered what it would be like to kiss you again, to feel your fingers entwined with mine as we strolled through a hallway. I wondered what we would fight about, or if we would fight at all. How it would feel to have you pick me up at the door to go on a first date again?
I loved you and I still think very fondly of you! I think you are an amazing person, one of my fondest memories from high school regardless of how it ended in high school.
Girls are such romantics, and I always wonder if boys think the same way? Did you think about dating me again? How did you see our break up? Do I ever cross your mind? We stayed in touch but it's not like we ever talk like this, it's not like we ever could. Missed opportunities, or maybe a missed disaster?
At the end of the day it warms my heart to see how happy you are with your family!! I would never want anything to come between you and your true happiness. I've found mine, and I wouldn't trade it for anything, but that doesn't mean I can't wonder. I don't write this make things complicated, I write this to explain, to put to words some strange feelings I am having. I write this to put to rest those strange feelings, but to open a door should you ever want to chat about old times to clear up the picture. I'm glad you are happy! I'm glad you are getting what you want out of life! I hope in time our stories intersect again and our significant others can meet and we can be that weird group of couples that hang out and nothing is actually weird about it!!
Love
your high school ex girlfriend
Dear Ex,
I know when we broke up things were tense!! So VERY tense, you were mad and I was heartbroken ( I just didn't know it yet). But a lot of time has past, I have come to some realizations and I wanted to share them with you.
When we broke up (read I broke up with you) I was heartbroken and didn't know it at the moment. You were so angry, asking me how I could be doing this to you. You told me it wasn't fair, that you'd even bought me a ring. Which the whole ring, in hindsight, seems extreme we were in high school just to be fair. I was tempted to change my mind, you must have been serious to buy to ring, but something told me not to. I stuck to my conviction, I just knew deep down that something wasn't right with our relationship. I was so sad, SO SAD!! I loved you and I didn't know what was wrong, I couldn't put my finger on it, I just knew something was wrong.
You left for your summer holidays and I stayed in town...part of me thought I'd done you a great favour your weren't forced to stay loyal to me over the summer you could get a summer girlfriend. Meet a girl on the beach, flirt away with twenty of them, it was like getting a hall pass. GO have your fun, I'll have fun here while you're gone but we will never speak about our adventures. I didn't understand at the time that you just wanted me, because I just NEEDED out.
I had two weeks of my summer where I hung out with our friends, your guy friends, who were not happy with me, but they were dating my friends so I was someone they had to accept. I wasn't happy though, something was missing. My 16 year old heart was yearning for someone and surprise surprise I wasn't finding that someone in any summer fling. I thought I'd found one, but the distance was too much and he was starting to get into things I wanted nothing to do with.
So I stayed in town and I knew I'd made a mistake. Everything I did made me think of you, everything. I wanted to call you, to write you, to send you a message, but I never did, because I knew you'd be back home soon. I could only hope that you would be willing to listen to me, to hear my apology, I'd no reason other than a gut feeling to break up with you. There was no proof, no evidence just speculation and suspicion. Then I had a conversation with a Little Birdie.
I had told said Bird that I was considering asking you to go out with me again when you returned home. I missed you so MUCH! I felt I made a terrible mistake, I wanted my best friend back, the person I could count on to make me smile, the person who knew about all my insecurities and loved me anyways. The little Bird then confirmed my suspicions, you'd been unfaithful, you'd stepped out on me and you'd done so with the Little Bird more than one time. For many times over the last couple of months. Times when I knew you were together, but you swore you were just friends. I didn't believe her at first, I thought this was some ploy, then two more people confirmed it.
Devastation befell me, my broken heart broke again, shattering into thousands of pieces. I cried and I got angry, and then I got even. I found a summer boyfriend, he was older, much more mature than you and I was going to live my life without you. SCREW YOU!! I screamed in my head and maybe out loud a time or two. I maybe should have been suspicious about the timing of the revelations, Bird just didn't want us back together because she wanted you. But I guess she screwed us both and herself over because you never took her as a girlfriend (thank you).
What a tumultuous time that was!! There were accusations, and lies and parents getting involved and then silence. And then we didn't talk, we'd pass each other in the hallways and not a word was spoken. The frigidness between us could have solved Global warming and brought in a new Ice Age. It eventually subsided, we each found happiness else where.
Then we each experienced heart breaks of our own. Who knew Karma could be such a BITCH!! And that girl cheating on you, (even though part of me was glad you were on the receiving end) made me so mad for you!! You were, are a great guy! It was fun reconnecting, and there was no pressure, It was easy falling back into a friendship with you.
I know you saw me do things, and I never chose you. I couldn't choose you for a lot of it you were with that girl, then you weren't but I was with that boy. It was serious, we'd been together for ever, but he was so bad for me, bad, bad, bad and he only got worse, but I don't know I guess my self esteem was non existent. I felt I deserved the treatment he gave me, because all my boyfriends before me had cheated, so maybe that's what I was supposed to end up with. What a horrible fate I must have earned and yet I had no idea why I'd earned it. I started making bad decisions, partying every night, random hook ups, you saw it all. You know more than I am sure you ever let on. Maybe that period of our story is why our story is this way, why we never tried to co-write another chapter together, who knows what might have been.
Then we had some more encounters over the years, but you were with someone or I was or we were both single but never ventured past friendship again. You were my friend again and I was so HAPPY, and maybe just having you back as a friend was enough and not something I was willing to gamble with, I'm just not 100% sure.
I know I thought about it, I wondered what it would be like to give you a second chance. I wondered what it would be like to kiss you again, to feel your fingers entwined with mine as we strolled through a hallway. I wondered what we would fight about, or if we would fight at all. How it would feel to have you pick me up at the door to go on a first date again?
I loved you and I still think very fondly of you! I think you are an amazing person, one of my fondest memories from high school regardless of how it ended in high school.
Girls are such romantics, and I always wonder if boys think the same way? Did you think about dating me again? How did you see our break up? Do I ever cross your mind? We stayed in touch but it's not like we ever talk like this, it's not like we ever could. Missed opportunities, or maybe a missed disaster?
At the end of the day it warms my heart to see how happy you are with your family!! I would never want anything to come between you and your true happiness. I've found mine, and I wouldn't trade it for anything, but that doesn't mean I can't wonder. I don't write this make things complicated, I write this to explain, to put to words some strange feelings I am having. I write this to put to rest those strange feelings, but to open a door should you ever want to chat about old times to clear up the picture. I'm glad you are happy! I'm glad you are getting what you want out of life! I hope in time our stories intersect again and our significant others can meet and we can be that weird group of couples that hang out and nothing is actually weird about it!!
Love
your high school ex girlfriend
Saturday, November 8, 2014
Meet Alizhay MacIntire
What is your full name?
Alice Holland MacIntire
Do you have any nicknames?
Yes Alizhay, and most people think
that’s my real name, so let’s not tell anyone ok?
What is your gender?
Female
How old are you?
I’m 16
What is your birth date?
May 30
What is your relationship
status?
Single but looking and I think I’ll
be dating this one guy in no time.
How would you describe your
hair colour?
I blonde straight hair, it’s like
spun gold
How would you describe your
eye colour?
I’ve blue eyes, like light sky blue none
of this ocean or water blue colour.
What is your orgin?
Canadian
Do you speak any other
languages?
English and I have a good
understanding of French and some Japanese
How tall are you?
I’m 5’6”.
What is your weight?
I’m 100lbs.
Describe for the readers your
body structure and physical faults.
I don’t’ like my ears, they really
annoy me, people say they don’t notice but I do and I am getting them changed
at Christmas.
I’m slim and always have been and I
don’t gain weight like ever.
How is your health, Physical
and Mental?
I’m really healthy and I don’t have
any mental health issues that’s Marisal.
What ethnicity are you?
English, Scottish and Iroquois.
What would you say is your
personal style?
I’m pretty trendy with my fashion but
I always put my own spin on it, I also like to dress like a girl, skirts, heels
and tops, I don’t think I own a pair of jeans at all.
What can you tell the readers
about your family?
Well it’s a bit of a shit show. My parents are divorced, mom got
remarried and step dad is a douche.
I have four siblings that live with my mom and step dad but I left home
three years ago and moved in with my dad.
I’m his only kid and he travels a lot for business so he’s not home that
often. He has a new girlfriend that has a kid, but it’s not his so I didn’t
want to live there anymore because she was always trying to mother me and I’m
like I left my mother for doing that back off. So I got my own apartment and Dad is helping with it but
since I moved out of a place that was provided for me I had to help pay my own
rent. But he did give me this
sweet car!
What can you tell us about
your circle of friends?
I would say Marisal is my best friend
and Tacia and I are good friends.
I met Marisal first and when we met her and Tacia were in some sort of
fight and I didn’t meet Tacia for a bit, but I heard a lot so I keep Tacia at
an arms length sometimes. I also
have other friends from back home but I don’t see them very often so I guess
that’s my circle. There are some work friends and we may get close but who
knows.
Do you have any enemies?
Yeah I don’t think this girl Paige
likes me at all, I don’t know what her problem with me is, but she’s always
glaring at me.
What are your religious
spiritual beliefs/ values?
I am spiritual, like I believe in pagan
gods and stuff like that. I also
love Tarot cards and those type of things. I think organized religion is the
biggest farce in the world.
What are your life goals?
I’m going to start my own business
and become rich that or marry a rich man.
What is your dream job or
dream for your life?
My dream job is to organize charity
events and social events with other rich people.
What is your favourite phrase
to use?
No Way
What are your hobbies?
I like reading, partying, dancing,
and if you tell anyone this I’ll deny, deny, deny but I like to knit.
What do you like?
Socializing, fashion shows, spas,
nature the beach
What are your dislikes?
I
dislike neediness, I dislike not getting my own way, I dislike beer
What do you loathe?
I loathe not getting my own way actually,
I loathe being challenged.
What are your fears?
I’m scared of heights, I’m scared of
public embarrassment
What are your strengths?
Do people know how to answer this? I
am really good at math, I am aware of how not to be awkward in social
situations, I am very confident. I’m intelligent.
What are your weaknesses?
I am loyal to a fault and I hate
change. I like things to stay the same so maybe that’s why even though Tacia
and I aren’t that close we are still friends because she knows me and if she wasn’t
around I might have to make new friends.
Talk about what you believe
are your good qualities.
I’m loyal, absolutely loyal to my
friends. I’m also determined to
get what I want and I work very diligently to achieve my goals. I’m goal oriented and I am not easily
distracted from what I want.
What are your bad habits?
I don’t always listen to others, I
sort of decide what the story is and let that be my truth and it’s not always
been exactly what I make it to be so that gets me in trouble.
Turn ons:
Tall dark and handsome. Money also is
pretty alluring to me
Turn offs:
Poorness, extra pounds
Natural talents:
I can play the piano and I’ve only
ever had three lessons
Temperament:
I could say I don’t have a temper,
but I do, it’s bad. I had to see a counselor when I was little for my anger
issues. I don’t think it’s that
bad now but I’ve worked at it for many years. But when I get mad I get mad and it takes me a long time to
stop being mad. I have a hard time
letting things go.
Background:
I just moved to Berry Creek when I
was 14. I had to get out of my mother’s house, it wasn’t a good environment for
me and I wanted to live with my father.
He’s not home most of the time so I got my solitude. Now I live on my own because my father
ruined my solitude by inviting his girlfriend and her kid to live with us, but
it’s actually working out pretty well, I’ve my own place which is more than any
of my friends can say. This town
is just somewhere I’m stopping in for a short time, then I am off to bigger and
better.
Happiest Moment:
I don’t think it’s happened yet but
possibly getting my own place.
Saddest Moment:
When my grandfather died, he showed me what unconditional love
was and I miss him
Friday, November 7, 2014
Meet Marisal Blanke
What is your full name?
Marisal Margeaux Blanke
Do you have any nicknames?
No I like to be called Marisal,
shortened names are so uncouth
What is your gender?
I’m female, was that ever really in
question?
How old are you?
I’m 16, going on 17 in two months
What is your birth date?
October 22
What is your relationship
status?
I’m currently single, but I’m always
on the look out for the one guy
How would you describe your
hair colour?
I have chestnut brown hair. It’s naturally curly too
How would you describe your
eye colour?
I’ve large inviting brown eyes.
What is your orgin?
I’m French and Chillean. My father is from Chili and my mother
was born in Canada to a very French family. We can trace our roots all the way
back to the French Revolution!!
Do you speak any other
languages?
No, I’ve tried but so far it’s just
English
How tall are you?
I’m 5’7”. It’s a decent height, I’m
not taller than most guys and can still wear heels, but I’ve got this really
small frame so I it works out.
What is your weight?
Oh I don’t know maybe 105 lbs, but
only because I wasn’t as active as I usually am in the summer.
Describe for the readers your
body structure and physical faults.
I’m very small in frame, but sorta
tall. I think I could be a run way
model, but no modeling agencies ever come here. I’m into dance and gymnastics so I have a typical body for
someone who does those sports, not that I do them anymore.
As for faults, I’m pretty perfect,
sometimes I tell my dad that my curly hair is a curse because it takes so much for
me to do it, but I’ve figured it out and now it’s not so bad. I’ve also got a
small chest, but I’m thinking of getting implants when I’m 18.
How is your health, Physical
and Mental?
I’m really healthy, I eat healthy and
stay healthy.
What ethnicity are you?
French and English and Chillean.
What would you say is your
personal style?
Oh I am so trendy, I love all the
fashion magazines!! I always by the latest trend and try all the make up and
hair styles as well.
What can you tell the readers
about your family?
My family used to live in Chile, but
then we moved to Canada before I was born. My mom and dad took a break for awhile when I was 7 but
recently they got back together.
So I’ve got a pretty perfect family. Sometimes it’s hard here though
because it’s not like this area has a lot of Chilean people.
What can you tell us about
your circle of friends?
Oh Alizhay is my BFF, she is just so
cool and she looks to me for guidance.
It’s really great, and then I am also really close with Tacia, she and I
have been friends since middle school.
We had a lot in common but, I’ve noticed lately that her interests
aren’t always the same as mine.
Sometimes she seems more philanthropic then she needs to be, sort of
like she’s faking it and no one is buying it. It’s like she’s lost her
genuineness.
Do you have any enemies?
I don’t think so, I’m pretty popular,
and people that don’t like me are just jealous of me.
What are your religious
spiritual beliefs/ values?
I don’t know, I was raised Catholic
so I guess that’s my beliefs.
What are your life goals?
I’m going to be a make up artist or
model. I just have to get out of this town.
What is your dream job or
dream for your life?
My dream for my life is to be a well
known artist, and to be sought out by others to help them foster their craft.
What is your favourite phrase
to use?
I don’t know. I guess I use Get out a lot.
What are your hobbies?
I like reading anything to do with
fashion, fashion is my passion. I
also like dance, reading, and cooking
What do you like?
I like beautiful things, I like art,
I like reading, I like paintings.
What are your dislikes?
Oh
well I dislike confrontation, I don’t like to fight and I’d like to avoid it at
all costs.
What do you loathe?
I loathe being lied to, I loathe when
people aren’t accountable and I loath when people don’t just own what they want
and they try to cover it up or pretend like it’s no big deal.
What are your fears?
I’m scared people will find out my
faults. Not that I have any but
what if I did?
What are your strengths?
I’m cunning and can talk myself out
of a lot of hard situations.
What are your weaknesses?
I don’t have any, I’m pretty perfect
can’t you tell?
Talk about what you believe
are your good qualities.
I’m a great person, people like me
and want to help me out. I give
what I get and I can empathize with others. I think I’m intelligent and genuine and if people don’t like
me that’s their problem.
What are your bad habits?
I not always great at staying on
task, for things like school. I
tend to procrastinate
Turn ons:
Tall guys, blue eyes, blond hair,
funny
Turn offs:
Short guys, insensitivity, unathletic
Natural talents:
Everything I do is a talent
Temperament:
I don’t get mad easily, but when I do
get mad at someone I tend to hold a grudge and then I will often not tell you
I’m mad. I don’t like confrontation so I don’t deal with the issue, I either
leave it be until I’m over it or until I don’t have to talk to that person
again.
Background:
I’ve lived here my whole life, my mom’s
family has been here for almost a 100 years now, ok maybe 50, but it’s been
since my great grandparents moved here.
My dad is an orphan from Chile and so we have no family there, his
family died in some mudslide or earthquake, I’m not sure he doesn’t talk about
it much. My parents separated when
I was 6 and my dad moved to the coast and I would go visit him out there. When my parents were getting back
together I hoped we would move to the coast and leave this town behind but for
some reason my dad said it was a bad idea and now we never talk about that time. I’m an only child and that’s the best
thing ever!!
Happiest Moment:
When my parents got back together
Saddest Moment:
When my parents got back
together
Thursday, October 20, 2011
The World of Imagination
Welcome to the portal of every destination imaginable!!!
I will be your tour guide through the ins and outs of using this blog spot to reach new destinations. Some are of this world, while others are on a completely separate plane. It's here where you will be able to meet characters, have interviews with authors, experience waking up in a new world, really the only limit is the imagination of the people who wish to contribute to this site.
In some cases you will find all kinds of different types of writings; poetry, fiction, non fiction, short stories, exerts, book reviews. And reader responses.
This website is going to help young writers find their way into the literary world. How to get published, how to get representation, what you need before looking for publishers or agents, how to get those things, and who to work out the kinks of the hidden world of publishing. It will expose the journey of those of us who have ventured down this path, how we chose the writings we made, the pitfalls that surprised us, the surprises that scared us.
For this writer personally, it will be a way to monitor my journey so I know that I am making progress, so that the dream to become a published author, a best selling author, does not die unrealized as I continue to shelf what I have to do to reach my goal for other things. I am going to do this, I just have to find away to realize this goal and find the best way to promote my writings.
So here we go, stay tuned for the first installment of fiction writing, it will be character interviews for a trilogy I am working on!
~J~
I will be your tour guide through the ins and outs of using this blog spot to reach new destinations. Some are of this world, while others are on a completely separate plane. It's here where you will be able to meet characters, have interviews with authors, experience waking up in a new world, really the only limit is the imagination of the people who wish to contribute to this site.
In some cases you will find all kinds of different types of writings; poetry, fiction, non fiction, short stories, exerts, book reviews. And reader responses.
This website is going to help young writers find their way into the literary world. How to get published, how to get representation, what you need before looking for publishers or agents, how to get those things, and who to work out the kinks of the hidden world of publishing. It will expose the journey of those of us who have ventured down this path, how we chose the writings we made, the pitfalls that surprised us, the surprises that scared us.
For this writer personally, it will be a way to monitor my journey so I know that I am making progress, so that the dream to become a published author, a best selling author, does not die unrealized as I continue to shelf what I have to do to reach my goal for other things. I am going to do this, I just have to find away to realize this goal and find the best way to promote my writings.
So here we go, stay tuned for the first installment of fiction writing, it will be character interviews for a trilogy I am working on!
~J~
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